I know everyone is raving about 13 Reasons Why. Me being suicidal and severely depressed wasn’t sure on whether I should watch it or not due to all the triggering claims and warnings but to be honest nothing really triggers me as my mind is constantly feeling the same way anyways so I thought ”why not? I couldn’t possibly make me feel any more worse about myself” and watched all the episodes within 2 days. I felt quite critical throughout most of it and the way mental health was portrayed but by the end of the season my mind still did not change the way I felt/feel about myself. I don’t know what I expected…maybe I thought if I watched a show about a dead girl who feels similar to how I feel that I would all of a sudden have my mind realize that I don’t actually want to die and wanting to get better and seek help. I still want to die. None the less it was a good show and its weird to see Hannah kill herself in a similar way to what I tried to do in 2015 (but failed miserably and was rushed to A&E). Sigh. Yeah if you get easily triggered I wouldn’t watch it. I know a lot of people would be against me watching it but I watched it out of my own choice and I didn’t watch it to get further inspired about killing myself or whatever. I watched it to get an understanding of how my head works seeing someone else go through similar situations. And yeah even though Hannah is a fictional character she put how I feel into words better than I ever could. I also hope that my school teachers and other school teachers watch this show. As my school is so crap and don’t even have a school councilor! And whenever I complained to the ‘Safe Guarder‘ of the school she only tells me to stop overthinking and sends me back to lesson. As I probably have said in previous blogs ‘no one really cares until your dead and even after death your forgotten about quickly.’ That’s the harsh truth of reality but that can all change if people like teachers that see students everyday notice the warning signs and actually attempt to help.